Today was a very hard day. The last few weeks have been good, I have felt comfortable here and happy with my situation. I still don't feel close to my companion but I've learned how to deal with her. (Be her friend, respond to her jokes, ignore her when necessary.) I am happy with her most of the time. I've learned to overlook her wanting to be right always and repeating the correct answers whether they were hers or not. That's just my irritated pride. What still has bothered me, though, is that she's constantly telling me to “Sh!” and “Stop doing (whatever)!” - mothering, basically. ¡No me gusta! But today it came to the point where I was really angry when she told me to “Sh!” OK, so I've gotten angry for a long time about that, but it hit me harder than normal. Then, Hermano Rushing had to “Sh!” me, and earlier Hermana Chelson had said a few motherly things to me, like my having a bad attitude about my Visa (P.S. it's okay if Hermana Eastman has a bad attitude.) Then I got to thinking about how I seem to make a lot of people mad/uncomfortable/annoyed and it HURT! I was teary-eyed through the second half of class and felt upset for all of it. I hate that teeter-totter emotion feeling. I don't have it often and I despise when I do. Another thing that bothers me is how “chummy” Hermanas Eastman and Chelson have become. Hermana Wilson and I have gotten closer because of it, but it isn't appropriate. Although I enjoy Hermana Wilson more, so es bueno. But companionships are a mission rule, so I need to learn to love her. Hermana Wilson is really hurt by Hermana Chelson ignoring her and has been confiding in me a lot.

Hermana Wilson and I in front of the temple