Today has been especially frustrating. Class was fine, I even stayed awake, the telecenter was not fun. We got only six referrals as a district. My companion doesn't give my words any credit. To her, I know nothing. It frustrates me and I made it known by my tantrum. :) I tried to be very mature but was having difficulty controlling my thoughts, feelings, actions. I want so much to be a happy person. I have realized that I am basically happy if those around me are happy and easy to get along with, but I am too controlled by my circumstances. That's not right. I need to CHOOSE to be in control and be happy regardless. I really miss Todd. I thought about skipping the mission thing again today. I've been very happy to be here most of this week. I feel fearful for the Español that is approaching me. I am starting to know less and less and it scares me.